Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding-Proverbs 3:5
It was 3:53 pm on a Thursday afternoon.
The swings were still. Jump ropes were stacked into swirling circles. Balls were lined up neatly against the wall.The playground was empty…except for my sister and me. School had dismissed over an hour ago, and we were still waiting for my mother to pick us up.
The custodian, Ms. Rhonda, swept dust nearby, working a double shift as the school’s maintenance staff and our impromptu babysitter. Whenever a car would pull into the neighboring parking lot, the three of us would crane our necks to look, hoping it was my mother. But when it turned out to be someone else, Ms. Rhonda returned to sweeping, my sister to playing, and me to festering.
I’d pace the pavement in my navy blue plaid jumper and fume.
Mommy is ALWAYS late. My friends walk home by themselves all the time! How come we can’t? Where is she? Mommy doesn’t care about picking us up. If she did, she’d be on time. She just doesn’t care.
But my mother did care. A lot. She cared enough not to want us to walk through sketchy areas of our neighborhood. And enough to have us wait until she made it from her job 45 minutes away to transport us home under her guard.
But my 9-year-old self didn’t understand that. According to my superior juvenile intellect, all I understood was that I was waiting unnecessarily. There was no good reason behind this wait. And what I wanted was not here when I wanted it to be. So I took the delay as a sign of disinterest and refusal. When it was the furthest thing from the truth.
There may be some things that God is taking His time in giving you. Prayers that seemingly fall into a heavenly black hole. Repetitive pleas that make your mouth dry. It can get old at times. And you may feel like that little girl in the navy blue plaid jumper.
But our comprehension is so narrow and limited. We simply cannot rely on it. The Lord not only sees what you desire but sees every thread of time. Remind yourself that He cares too much to be unconcerned. He has in mind the perfect moment and way to release your answer so confidently place every prayer and heart cry in His lap.
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